The downfall

Happy 2013 ladies and gents…  Welcome to the year that should have never been.

Coming to you live from a seedy basement somewhere, I bring you a brand new bridge into the mind of Kymlee… I was thinking the other day, (I know, rare occurrence huh?) that the world is a magnificently fucked up place.

In the last year, we as a country have felt tremendous loss, on more than one occasion. Violence and politics, politics and violence. The ever perpetuating circle of distrust and misuse and scapegoat-isms and untruths and coverups and people being led to the slaughter. The slaughter of their minds and then their will to fight. I am almost at a loss for words to describe for you, as to what a disappointment it is to be in THIS SHIT right here… To be a subject of the Republic of the United States of America.

Picture this…

A little girl, wearing her little school clothes, with her hand over her heart, repeating the words to the Pledge of Allegiance and looking at a waving flag that is supposed to symbolize freedom, justice, loyalty, honor, and above all else, the love of a unified group of people who will always fight for their freedom to speak, to choose, to love, to be whatever it is that God so intended, without oppression. That little girl, who grew into a woman, truly believed in these things. She put her heart, her soul, her life into these freedoms, cherished them, and allowed no one to ever take them away. Until gradually she started to realize that those freedoms weren’t really there, they were illusions of freedom, and that an evil had been corrupting her direct world, and her indirect one.

That evil, is complacency. We don’t even know it’s happening, until it already has taken hold of the lives you cherish so much. It is a terrible feeling to wake up and finally understand how powerful complacency has become. A terrible feeling to know that you played a part in it, going about your life like nothing will ever touch you. But it has.

Our life here in America is about to change, drastically, so much so that you will notice. There will be no more boiling frog syndrome, the time for gradual has all but come to a close. Now, we will be relinquishing everything to be entrusted to our government, who has been far less than trustworthy for as long as I’ve been alive, and then some. They will control us further, and if you think I’m insane, just take a look at history, and compare it with ours. We are under the thumb of a tyrannical government already. They are upon us, and there is no satisfaction for the thirst of power, or money, or blood.

Our generation and the ones to come, we are suffering, and most of us are blind. Blind trust.
I don’t know why.

Where is the light?

Creativity Reigns

Some of you may be aware that I am a lover of all things in which creative juices are the primary fuel to a project… or five, or seven and a half…
I enjoy and partake in many different avenues of creativity, such as but not limited to… photography, experimenting with beauty ideas, blogging, singing, songwriting, playing instruments, digital art retouching, poetry, avant garde modeling, and the most recent addition being writing… a novel.

One might think that is a bit of sensory overload but for me, it’s the air I breathe. My biggest problem, is finding the focus to finish a project once I’ve started (this actually applies to creative projects only…) It’s like there’s this perpetual “squirrel” that keeps dodging around and like the magpie I am, well… chasing after stimulation is as much of a pastime as catching it.

(Press play… you want to… trust me)

Any who… the purpose of this post was not to explain my artistic neurosis but to show you the end results…Although,

::back of hand to forehead in a dramatic fashion:: an “Ahrteest” is never finished her work, you know? hahaha

So, you all can see some of the fruits of modeling in the sidebar, and some of my writing skills  ridiculousness on this blog, and you’ve all been privy to my musical efforts… but I have yet to show you any of my new photography, retouching or even new poetry. So I figured, why not share all three in one post today. I will also link you to my FB fan page for my media company which I started awhile ago. If you’d like to like it and share, I wouldn’t say no ;)

Kopera Media

Here’s one of my latest works. I have a new affinity for landscape and nature type photography. I took this image at a local spot in New Hampshire, For the image I used a Brady Daguerreotype desaturation with some dodge and burn, as well as a slight green cross process filter to intensify the contrast, and this is what happened!

Desolate Ink

here’s the poetic thoughts to go with the image, inspired by the music I was listening to called “Angel” by Massive Attack (Mezzanine album) which I’ve linked below as well…

Desolate Ink

poetry and image
copyright 2012
Kymlee Kopera
***
Desolate Ink
As black as my heart,
As empty as my being…

When I am weak
you give me nothing
When I am strong
you keep me drowned
despaired…

Inky and visceral
the viscosity adheres to my skin.
It’s in my lungs
It’s in my thoughts
It’s taken over,

and I…
will breathe no more
Should it climb out of my mouth
and on my tongue I will taste
the disdain

Infectious…
and why do I love it so?
Why do I rely on it’s death?
Certainly, most certainly
life will never come to me
not while I drink
my desolate ink…

So there’s a little fun for you tonight, and I will be posting some of my more recent stuff periodically. Thanks for stopping in, and who knows, maybe I’ll take up sculptures next!
To be continued…
Love,
Kymlee

Civilian Transitions

It’s been a busy couple of months trying to get situated back in my home state, for my husband and myself. You know everyone says that it’s different transitioning into the civilian life after being around the military community… I always thought, well I haven’t been around it that long… 2 years is nothing in comparison to some  families you know? It is different though. I find myself longing for the friends we made, not so much the state or the climate (weather or otherwise) but the camaraderie which is something that can only belong in a community of people who have that commonality between them. I was never even truly integrated into what being a military dependent means, I was in this sort of limbo between deployments and living off post, so you can only imagine how those people who are in the thick of it every day for YEARS really feel once they decide (or the US military decides) that the civilian world is better suited for them.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving the freedom we have, being untied to anything. I’m loving that we’re home with my family, but I miss some things about military life that can’t be replaced, (nor should they be…) A lot of our good friends deployed this week, which is something my husband in particular is having a hard time with. We are both sad, and worried, and are proud of them at the same time, but Jay… He has this desire to be by their side, to want to protect his friends, and who can blame him? They train, and train, and train for deployments, and then those who get left behind regardless of the situation I’m sure feel a loss that many of us civilians can’t possibly try to understand.

Back to positives though, because while we miss our old life and the people who left such an impression on it, we must move forward. We’re still looking to find our niche’ in the private sector world, as well as other areas, and we’ve been for better or worse, couch hopping until we can figure it all out. Transitions are a tough time, but you would think at least I’d be a pro at it these days, seeing as I’ve spent most of my adult life transitioning to one place and the next in short amounts of time. I will say, when you have more than one person, it’s much more difficult in that area, but pays of in the end.

So for all of my readers out there in the big blue world, moving on and transitioning is tough but I’m hoping that your lives are going well. If not? Don’t you worry…there’s always tomorrow!

 

With love,

 

Kymlee

 

Enough- A Kymlee Original

Hello again! Time for another song post !!!:)

So I wrote this one last week, but finally got the opportunity to record it on youtube and soundcloud this weekend. I have posted the acoustic one here on the video, and the one that has harmonies etc is below on the soundcloud widget.

It definitely needs some fine tuning but this is the bones of it, so let me know your thoughts. Message is simple enough, *pun intended*

Much love!

Kymlee

Enough

copyright 2012 Kymlee Kopera

I am a dying tree, broken by wind and falling dreams…
I am not healed by time, only by which my heart decides…

So small. significance. life is a burden that makes no sense…
I know, it is the way, still we must carry all this weight…
(carry this weight)

When will it ever be enough,
when will it ever be enough?
When will we ever be enough?
When will life ever be enough…

Tragic, but beautiful, from the grand entrance till the end of the show…
What do we leave behind? A plot and a grave or a brilliant light??
(a brilliant, brilliant life)

When will it ever be enough,
when will it ever be enough?
When will we ever be enough?
When will life ever be enough…

When will we ever be enough?
When will we ever have enough?
When will we ever be enough?
When will life ever be enough?

Influenster: Beauty Blogger VoxBox 2012 opening

So for those of you who haven’t seen it, here’s my box opening and description of the products received in this box. I’m excited to share this with you and I hope that you all sign up to be an influenster to have fun with new products and such. As a disclaimer, this is my honest review of the products and an unbiased review of my own personal experience, not because I’m being paid or anything like that. Enjoy, and if you have any questions or comments about the products I received, please feel free to comment on here or on the video itself!!

 

Influenster post no. 3

Dudes and dudettes…

 

I was SOOooo not kidding about getting involved with Influenster because guees what??? NOWW I’m getting the Beauty Blogger Voxbox because of my involvement on the social networks and all that loveliness! I’m telling you, you need to check it out!

Here’s my latest review of the: Naturals 2012 Voxbox

Here’s where you need to sign up: Influenster

Here’s my original post all about what Influenster is, and how I started! Enjoy : Influenster & Kymlee

 

if you have any questions, please let me know on here, or go check out their Facebook and Twitter for admin help. They are PHENOMENAL with answer questions and customer service!

 

With Love,

 

Kymlee

Reflections (revisited)

About a year ago, I posted a song I had written (link HERE )
and it was about reflecting on the turns life takes and how they shape you and how you deal with those lessons. Though I had deleted that track months ago, I revisited the song, and this time I used the ukulele, somehow it was more fitting than the guitar in this song, and made some more tailored harmonies, lighter yet more definitive than last time. Some of you may recall this tune, but hopefully this version does the meaning and the lyric, more justice than the last. Enjoy

With Love,
Kymlee

 

Reflections
copyright  2011/2012
Kymlee Kopera

Being young and innocent, is not all its supposed to be… I am so much better now, with all that’s behind me.
Lessons learned and overcome, life it’s beautiful. I am so much stronger now, in all the things I’ve done.

Going faster in the wind,
Time it slips on by…
Give me love so I will live
Give me wings to fly.

Knowing when to stop it all, knowing when to smile. Instead of feeling overwhelmed, know it’s worth the while…
Journey here and there as well, I am all that I have been, and in the darkness I can see, the healing light gets in.

Faith is only steps away
When we don’t know what is true
Give me hope so I believe
Don’t let me be a fool
(Don’t let me be a fool)

(instrumental break)

And I’m going faster in the wind
Time it slips on by…
Give me love so I can live
Give me wings to fly
(2x)
Oh give me wings to fly (2x)
Give me wings to…

Influenster Naturals Voxbox Sept. 2012 w/ Kymlee

Hey again folks, review time!!! If you’d like more of a reference as to this program, read my original entry and then watch the vid. I get pretty in depth about it for you all :) Any questions, comments, discussion, please either comment here or on the video to promote the vid and the chances of me getting to review more for all of you! :D Thanks very much again, love you all and talk to you soon xoxo

Kymlee

 

Influenster Sign Up

Very excited to have gotten my first voxbox from Influenster… Here you go world, hope you enjoy! also… sign up for Influenster, it’s a really awesome program, as you can tell from my ranting and raving about it. :D

Kymlee’s YouTube Channel

Disclaimer:
I was given this voxbox free of charge for testing purposes by Influenster.com

All of my opinions are based on my own reviews and testing experiences with the said products. I am not being compensated by the companies that provided the products, or by Influenster for my opinions.

The song you hear in the beginning and in the end is my cover version of
Israel Kaʻanoʻi Kamakawiwoʻole aka Bruddah Iz’s song “White Sandy Beach”
Original here:

my full free downloadable version: