I wanted to write another post reagrding health, as I just previously addressed my physical fitness, but I wanted to really elaborate on my mindset as of late…
Health. Something we always have in the back of our minds, but most of us don’t pay it any attention until something happens and suddenly our health is in question. We consistantly put things in our bodies that are not supposed to be there and then wonder why it is that we feel like shit, and we’re obese and have no energy etc etc. This world of instant gratification enabled us to cripple ourselves by order of convenience. It’s a sad thing. In survival, the majority of us would never survive on our own if left without the modern day conveniences that we all use, such as supermarkets, electronic items, fast food restaurants, internet, blah blah blah.
I’m going to give you some personal insight into my life pertaining to health.
For years I’ve struggled with heart issues, or what I was led to believe were heart issues. Since my preteen youth I’ve been experiencing Chest Pain, shortness of breath, dizziness, easy bruising, excessive fatigue, poor appetite, depression, mood swings, inconsistant sleep patterns, severe migraines, etc etc. I’ve been to numerous doctors, cardiologists, neurologists, you name it. I’ve had sleep studies, I’ve worn numerous heart monitors and I’ve done EKG’s and echocardiograms. I’ve been put on freaking BETA BLOCKERS as a teenager without an actual diagnosis.
I’ve been put on Zoloft to release more ceratonin in my brain, which actually caused more harm than good. All medications that I have ever been given short of antibiotics I have actually taken myself off of completely because they were wrong in my body and I felt it. When I took myself off of Zoloft my headaches actually stopped for a good 6 months. I took the beta blockers for approx. two weeks and because they had such an adverse effect on me I stopped taking them. No change in the heart pain either during or after. Health has always been one big question mark for me. I’ve reached this point in my life where I just want to be completely healthy in all areas of my life. Physically and emotionally. I’m frusterated because I never get a difinitive answer.
4 days ago, I was officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. Here’s my issue with this diagnosis, I have friends who ligitimately have Fibromyalgia, even one of my blogger friends on this very site, who struggle with this disorder and yes, I do share some of these symptoms with those who have Fibro, but I know that I don’t have it. I feel it, I know something is wrong in my body and no one will listen to me because I’m a 24 year old female with ok lab tests that are seemingly normal. After doing more research on Fibromyalgia, I’ve learned that it is an exclusionary diagnosis in many cases. While there are individuals who actually do live and breath this disorder, there are many who are wrongly diagnosed because their doctors simply don’t want to do the tests that would find the real problem. A large percentage of persons diagnosed with Fibro were found years later to actually have advanced Lyme disease, also Rheumatoid Arthritis, or other problems that go unchecked and untreated for years.
My doctor put me on Lyrica as a trial to see if it would help. So far I actually think I’m having an adverse reaction to the drug. She only gave me a low dosage of 75mgs that I’m supposed to take 2 times a day. In the 4 days I’ve taken it, I’ve only been able to take one pill per day, and I’m literally feeling horrible. My throat is tight, I’m completely off balance, almost fell over today actually, I’m so dizzy and nauseous, and my heart is beating faster and I feel drugged. I’m calling her tomorrow and telling her I’m not taking it anymore. Firstly I’m not going to medicate myself for the rest of my life with something that makes me feel worse than I did before. I’d rather live with the pain and symptoms anyday. I’m also kind of against meds unless they are completely necessary for everyday living. I’m sure Lyrica helps some people, but not me. I don’t even take Motrin if I can help it. I have a problem with putting un-natural substances in my system. It took me awhile of research before I decided I would take that thermogenic I talked about in my last post.
My good friend TimeThief is a victim of this condition and she has been a heaven sent angel of information. She shares a lot of her research and updates about Fibromyalgia on her blog.
Read one of her posts here
and a link to all her posts about Fibromyalgia here
I am emotionally and physically struggling with this diagnosis because even I cannot be entirely sure that I don’t fall under this category, but with my seemingly infinite craving for a finite answer, I cannot accept that there is no stop to what I’m going through. So in addition to my physical well being, I am also attending counselling soon to promote my emotional health. No one I’ve talked to in my life really understands the pain I feel and the frustration level I am at now. For almost 15 years of my life I have had no relief and it’s taken it’s toll on my body, my mind and my spirit.
Yes…Kymlee, the forever optomist, is discouraged.
I do have the strength to get up and challenge the challenges I’ve faced, and to come out okay on the other side, but yes… I’m human and I do feel down sometimes just like the rest of the world. This is why especially right now, I am so focused on my personal health, and I think it’s important for me to share with everyonem that you should really take a look at your lives and really truly understand that your health is worth it’s weight in gold.
Treasure your bodies, don’t mistreat them. They carry you through such a long, and difficult life and to not take care of your body is only doing yourself a disservice. Be healthy, Be well in your mind and your physical selves. Take care to not push yourselves in the back of your mind because you don’t belong there, you belong in the front, where you can observe and tweak as needed.
Thanks for stopping by everyone, I love you all and wish you happiness. Cherish life.